Obama won, I am so happy and proud right now. Prop 8 was so close.

Vote!!!!!!!!!!!

Holy Mary Mother of God! They're gonna make an Anita Blake movie or TV series!!! Sweetness!!!

Okay, well this is extremely disturbing:

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Art or torture? Opinions anyone?

So, I downed a bottle and a half of really good champange with my Uncle last night and stayed up talking to him until three, first time I've actually felt affected by booze. I felt slightly dizzy, and very tired, but that might of been because of the time. He urged me to find what made me feel that, "the world is a good place, cosmic vibration" feeling and never let go. And that I spent to much time thinking about others and not enough time worrying about my own welfare. Which is very true. And very hard for me to change.

I just made Elderberry pie with berries from the tree in my driveway. And it was fucking delicious. And all the guys around me are seriously impressed. I rock!

I rode 450 miles on a Harley... my ass hurts.

My best-friend, my lover has not shared his life with me for the past year. It feels like he's a ghost, or dead. Now he's sharing his life with some random girl. God I tried so hard and got nothing back. So I finally stopped, and then I couldn't and now there's nothing to say except we'll see when you come home. I feel so hurt and so betrayed and abandoned. I don't know how to express this to him with out pissing him off, which is not my intent. I ask him to communicate and I get yelled at, he didn't want to talk and know I can't play all fake, like there's nothing wrong and he's pissed. Everything I do is wrong, the way I feel is wrong, or at the very least doesn't matter. Fuck fuck fuck.

We cleaned out the side patio by my room and moved out all the fire wood, so I'm going to make a nice little place where you can sit and talk and drink tea. And I'm going to try and replant stuff in the garden today.